Hello Blog,I've not been updating lately, but today, i just thought that i should just write my feelings about the recent happenings down.

Last night, on the 16th of Feb, I had a fight with my awesome friend,lost my temper entirely, leading to the cause of this.

Today, she passed me a note, telling me about how she felt. After reading that note, I suddenly realised all the bad things i've done to her. I never knew she took it to heart. Those things i did, really hurt her bad. I feel like a complete jerk now.

DEAR TRACEY,
If you would ever read my blog, i'd like to tell you this. I'm sorry for all the bad things i've done to you. The reason why i broke contact with you for a long while aft i got attached, was because in my first relationship, i kept contact with a friend while i was with my gf, and then, she got jealous, and broke up with me. I did not want to repeat the same mistake again, thus, i did it. I never knew that i would hurt you so badly.

I felt really guilty reading the letter, and it's not your fault, it's mine. I really hope you told me earlier so i could change myself, and we would not get into such a situation. I just hope, you could give me one last chance to change myself, I don't want to lose a friend like you. I need you. You've always been there to help me up when i fell down, cheer me up when i felt sad and listen to my woes when i had them. Now that you left, i realised how much you actually mean to me.

Please Tracey, Give me, one last chance, I SWEAR, if i ever do such things that are mentioned in that letter you gave me, I will leave, on my own accord. One last chance is all i ask for.

Hey guys!

So how has it been for you readers? (: Feels like zero *forever alone*

So yea, Yesterday was a very beneficial day at the gym with Jonathan and Daniel Boey . Haha, felt weird that I went to the gym with a 20 yr old.
Basically, I had major muscle aches during work today :P and i had fun messing with that stock keeper :3.

After messing with him, I went home and ate curry rice for lunch. Quite nice, aft that, i went to wash the toilet, cause my mum wanted me to.

At around 4+, I had an emotional outbreak. She suddenly wanted to confiscate my computer and wanted me to study. WOW MUM, i did not know after O levels still can study one sia, i don't even know where I going next year you want me to study. Well, I did as I was told, and studied. I took that badly as I felt that she had no faith in me, believing that I did not work hard for my Os. Thinking I was going to take private Os next year. I am already unconfident about myself, all I need is reassurance . Why can't you give me that?


So yea, have been texting with bestfriend and daughter more often lately, and no, they are not replacements to my empty heart. Even though I used to date my bestfriend. That feeling from before is gone, and I feel a lot more relaxed than before. (:

Thank god for them.



P.S. I miss you.

And with that same mouth which devoured humans, you cry out "i love you" , but will i still be able to say the same?

Meh. Today was #homealone day. Where i was home alone the whole day. My mum and dad went for a wedding, my sis went to jb, and i'm still here.

So basically, i managed to write 3 compos to mdm K today .
Still no reply from her though.

Should probably go for a bath now, before my sis gets home, later she steal my water!! D:<
HAHA! Well, it's 1 more day to Os after today. Too fast.

I hope i can accept what is given to me next year. Even if i can't get into Poly, i must get into MI.

I miss you really bad.
Where'd you go?

hey people, it's been a while since i posted.
But who cares, no one reads this anyway.
Well, at least this would be my ranting space for now.

So basically , my prelim results weren't that good. It was bad.
I got a 20 point for L1R4, which was inclusive of CCA. which meant i can only qualify for MI.
L1R5 was 30. JC? No way.

I've been working really hard recently, but there is just so much on my mind , but i just can't talk to anyone.
Well, except my awesome.
In my class, i basically can't speak to anyone, except that few who have helped me.
If i speak to anyone else about it,the whole world would find out, I don't want that to happen, i've had enough of the backstabbing incidents happening.

I have to start speaking up. Keeping everything inside me is not a good feeling, not at all...

I am confused. I am very confused.
Crash , crash and burn, for this will be my last stand. Clear my mind, clear my heart, treat everything as trash, and throw them all away, what is the point of keeping all of this inside.

Forget her.

Hello readers, i haven't been posting for a long time, i wasn't in the best of mood recently,